Wednesday, November 15, 2006

Michigan week!!




GO BUCKS!!!! I am a one of the lucky souls that has tickets for this historical event....well sporting event that is. This is the most anctipated game EVER that I can remember in my life time. I come from a long line of OSU graduates (even though I did not) and not in 103 years has there been a game like this!! The hype, the commentary, the booze!! That is right folks the party starts Friday afternoon at our office and does not stop until I wake up Sunday knowing that OSU has kicked #2's ass and will do so again in the Championship game! (counting chickens and all that....)

WOO HOO!!

Wednesday, November 08, 2006

Hiatus or something........

I like how momma put that about a few of us bloggers. I am the something part....not quite sure what to write about or say. Been going through some life changes and the new job, while I like it, it is keeping me busy.

I am so restless and uncomfortable right now. I wish I could make some earnest changes in my personal world but my children are holding me in place. I have not been the best mom lately nor a good daughter. Those things are starting to weigh on my mind. I have let friendships pass and other things fall to the wayside that I enjoy, like this blogging thing.

I know I am not perfect but I need to strive to do better in my everyday living. Love more, complain less and be happy.

Hope this rambling finds everyone well and healthy!

Thursday, September 14, 2006

Hi I am Jen and I am addicted to.....

Crap TV...yes thats right, my summer viewing has consisted of Reality TV. Rock Star-SuperNova, Big Brother AllStars, Project Runway, and some really bad crap that NBC programed with Regis as the host, and even more bad brain deterating garbage that stars Flavor Flav! Sometimes a girl just can't help but look at the train wrecks that frequent "reality tv".

My favoriate crap, by far, has been Rock Star. However, I was sorely disappointed last night that SuperNova chose Lucas Rossi as their lead singer. I like him but, like Dave said, I am not so sure I can sit through a 2 hour concert listening to him. I will have to see how he actually sounds on a CD, song after song. Also, Gilbey needs to step up and sing better back up and play better lead guitar if this band wants to have any kind of chance. I think Clarke will be the ego one of this group.

Big Brother, ah what to say what to say! Chilltown is the funniest most entertaining contestants to ever play a reality game in the history of reality tv! Brrrrnnggg Brrrrnnnggg....f'in hiliarous and I loved watching Dr. Will play everyone like a well toned violin! Kudos to Will and Mike Boogie for making me smile when I needed brain candy.

Now that most of these shows are over we are moving on to Dancing with the Stars. My children love this show and its something we can watch together and enjoy. I am rooting for Emmett Smith. I enjoyed his attitude and was pleasantly surprised by his moves, much better than Jerry Rice from last year.

Now my all time favoriate reality junk starts soon....Survivor....woo hoo. Not sure how much of it I will actually watch this year. Times have become busy in our household and my brain cannot handle much more dumbing down after this summer of lack luster programing.

With that I leave you with a a quote from Jeff Probst "Fire is life" well at least for some. In my house life has become "Reality TV"!

Tuesday, August 22, 2006

Lets talk about sex!

Lets talk about sex baby, lets talk about you and me and all the good things....

So chat away....opinions, thoughts, getting enough these days? Does your personal life swirl around the thought of sexual encounters or has marriage and young children done away with the intimate moments!

LOL I know odd topic for me but just want to see what can be stirred up in my little blog here!

Friday, July 14, 2006

Love

There are so many different kinds of love. The love of your spouse or signficant other are usually the biggest loves of our lives. The only exception I can make to that is our children. There is your love for your friends and family. Sometimes the love you have for certain members of your family is only a deep caring.

Deep loves are so rare. I love my children deeply and I know at one time I loved my husband deeply. How do we get back to that kind of love without being hurt or overtaken by other emotions? Or the day in and day out workings of life?

There has been so much more that has been going on in my life in the last year that I am struggling with so many emotions. How do you reconcile hypocritical behavior and not lose yourself? How do you forgive yourself and the persons that you love, because we are afterall just human. Most of us don't intentionally set out to hurt eachother.

I have truly tried to understand what goes through a man mind when dealing with a relationship. I have tried to be open and honest but when all that fails where does it leave you? I still feel the love, I can't stop loving. Does that make me a fool?

Wednesday, June 28, 2006

Congratulations to my friend Scott

Scott is listed in my links under Scott but his blog is called Hard to Want. Scott is getting a short story published and I just wanted to show my appreciation of his writing and hard work!

Cheers to you Scott and way to go!!

Monday, June 26, 2006

The weekend, new job and life

So far the new job is going ok. I started last Tuesday and the woman I replaced is off on maternity leave. It is doubtful that she will return to this firm but I am hoping she thinks about part time and helping out around the holidays. I will be running the title company by myself and am my own boss. It sounds lovely but in reality it may be difficult planning vacations and days off with the kids.

The weekend so tons of fun. We went to Cleveland Saturday for the Reds game. There was a group of 15 aging 25 to me. I refuse to admit I was the oldest of the group (oops I just did!) My sister in law and her husband arranged the fun filled weekend and we once again partied like the rock stars we are! It was fun to get away and was lucky my parents split the weekend up with the kids. I have not gone out in Cleveland in ages and was surprised at the night life and bars. I danced my rear off and had a blast at a place called the Blind Pig. One of my favorites local bands from my youth, Reagonamics, was playing 80s music and the whole bar was hopping. Oh I also wore my very hot cowboy hat which was recently purchased in Vegas. I was in Vegas 2 weeks ago and need to blog about that fun time too!

My son had his 5th birthday last Thursday and he officially is a young man. They grow up so quickly I can't believe it. I cried that day. I did not tell anyone I cried but I did, I no longer have a baby. Life is one never ending change and sometimes you just get hit over the head.

Wednesday, June 14, 2006

Woo Hoo

Lots to write here!! I have a new job, start June 20. It is back to the small law firm for me but it is doing what I know best. I will be a one person title company for them, am replacing a lady who has been there for 7 years and is only leaving to be a stay home mom. I got a really good feeling from all the partners I met plus I gained another increase in salary. I am excited and want to make this position work, not necessarily the dream job, but I think a good direction to go in. Lots of flexibilty so I will be able to take care of the family.

Thursday, May 25, 2006

And the search is on

In the two (2) days since I was told my job was eliminated I have sent out 8 resumes and have had 4 call backs. I have set up three (3) interviews for next week and turned down one, the money for that is not what I am looking for.

My current boss provided me with a stellar reference letter and his wife who is an attorney had one of her partners pass my resume to a big corporation. I have actually worked with that corporation, they were a client of a firm I worked for back in the 90s. They recogonize my name and the old firm and the VP wants to interview me! I am very excited about this prospect. I believe once again I am in the right place at the right time.

Thanks for coming back and listening to my saga. I do have some fun stories and family stuff I want to throw out there and will once time allows next week.

smooches peeps!!

Tuesday, May 23, 2006

This day sucks!

I am just full of good news these days....never anything good to post it seems.

Due to economic reasons corporate has pulled the plug on expansion in our area, hence my job has been eliminated. Yes the job that I have probably waited years to have. My last day is June 2 if I so choose, which I have. I don't like to burn bridges and there is a chance that the market could turn around over the next year or so and they will hire be back. I am at the top of my boss' list and he is pretty torn up about having to lay me off. It seems he jumped the gun hiring me because he did not want to lose me to another company. So I will have a good reference from here and a decent explanation as to my employment time frame.

I really hate to be in this position again and feeling pretty lousy about everything. So it seems that I will be returning to the legal field, sucking things up for the family benefit. I will have to attempt a serious attitude adjustment regarding my feelings on working for attorneys again. (No offense to those blogging/online buddies that are in the legal field)

Maybe I will cash in the 401K and go back to school, become a teacher, stay home with kiddos, do something different!! Money really does make the world go around!

Thursday, May 11, 2006

American Idol.....small rant!!

Chris was my fav....cannot believe America chose the others over him. I loved Katherine too, however, her last two weeks have been weak. She seemed too eratic on stage and a little too dippy for my liking. Katherine is a sweet girl but I see her acting and doing broadway type things. She could do very well.

I am ok with Taylor and Elliott but just do not see them as actual idols. There is a market niche for these two, but not in the radio hits capacity such that Kelly Clarkson has had.

Chris had the packaging, the sex appeal and the voice. Such a damn shame the last of the hotties have been voted off!! Oh well Katherine is still a hottie....but you know what I mean!! *wink*

Monday, May 08, 2006

What to post??!!

Good lord it has been almost a month since my last posting. I don't feel like I have much to say. Everything is beginning to seem routine again, very busy too.

Work is going well, a little slower than I would have liked, but it is a good thing to have extra training. It is always hard to be the new person and it seems doublely so when working with mostly women. Women can be very chatty and very catty....something I have never been to good at dealing with. I am more of an upfront, underdog, standup to the big guy, kinda girl. Not too big of issues at the moment and feel like I handled myself very professional and diplomatically on this front last week. So this week is starting off fresh and with a different perspective for me and I think for several co-workers. It is all for the better and I am glad.

I am back to coaching softball this year and have made some changes in my coaching approach this year. It is still fun, exciting and a thrill when a little girl actually gets a concept and shows improvement. Hubby is helping out again and he is doing well with the girls too. Last year he never said too much but this year he is forced to as we are splitting practices into 2 groups. I really do have to figure out how to get pics up so I can show off our pretty pink shirts this year!! LOL

The kids and I are loving American Idol this season!! I am too hot for Chris....um....yeah....enough of that!!

I peek in on blogs on occassion, but may not reply. Like I said earlier, I just don't have much to say which is a rarity. Still gaining perspective and holding back on things a little. In time I think I will come out of the shell again but for the moment I still feel like I am in a whirlwind that is not slowing down.

Monday, April 10, 2006

The Rock Star is back!!

Two of my girlfriends and I went to Belltara Casino & Spa this weekend and had a great time!

We arrived at the resort at 1:00 in the afternoon, checked in and headed right for the casino. My friend Andrea is a single mom so Kathy and I were initially on the hunt for cute boys at the black jack tables. No such luck during lunch time at a casino in the middle of nowhere!!

We decided on a $5 table as Kathy has never played black jack. Our dealer, Louie, was a huge jackass. I made a mistake early on and the dude never let up. So my plain was to have fun with my friends and the other players and be as obnoxious as possible. My plan worked and Louie took his break........Bob was an awesome dealer and I proceeded to win $100.00!!

Soon it was spa and massage time and we headed off for the much needed relaxation. I got an upper body massage and petticure. It was heaven and I plan on making this a habit at least once a year! All three of us really enjoyed it and plan on returning.

We only had a so so and dinner and were starved after the spa and vodka in our room. Once we were refreshed the casino and cute boys (for Andrea mind you) were calling us! All in all the gambling for me was fun and I only lost about $25.

I feel like I am getting back to my old self and feeling very happy at the moment. The cycle of the Rock Star will continue, well at least once a year!

Wednesday, April 05, 2006

Back to work!!

I am back to work this week. I must say I have a much better attitude and am enjoying going into a non-stressful environment. The ladies I am working with seem to be a good bunch and the woman who is training is a doll. I am still trying to get a handle on personalities so I will reserve judgement on some I have met.

I am currenlty working in our biggest branch office while my branch is being built out to custom. I honestly knew this was the field I was cut out to be in and am anxious to get started. While I am tired and the drive at the moment sucks, being back at a job really makes me feel good. I don't ever think I could just not work unless I had actual babies at home.

We took a family vacation to Georgia and Florida over Spring Break. We left the night of my Granny's funeral. Seemed everyone in my family had vacations and Spring Break at that time. The funeral was sad but was an opportunity to lay her to rest and see our family. My mom is renovating the farm house so that is taking up her time. But I worry about her health now too. Lots of life changes, but I feel good.

I keep saying I am going to keep up more, post more, read more. I have been spending less time on the computer though and I think I am the better for it. I really wish I could meet lots of you, and plan on going to Niagra Falls if at all possible.

Smooches, hugs and huge thanks to all that gave me sympathy about my grandmother.

Tuesday, March 14, 2006

Death

My Granny died this a.m., she was 93 years, gave birth to two (2) daughters, witnessed the births of eight (8) grandchildren and fifteen (15) great grandchildren. My Granny was dear to my mom, my aunt and my cousins. Anyone who every met her always had a smile and knew my Granny to be a great lady. She was the last of her generation in our family, outlived her older brothers and sisters, parents, husband and all of her inlaws, friends and cousins.

I will miss you Granny, you gave me such love and devotion amongst all the grandchildren I never really knew I was just one of many.

Love and kisses,

Jenny

Tuesday, February 28, 2006

Is this an entry?!

I start my new job on April 1! It is the position that I have hoped for in the last several years. I will be a Branch Manager for several offices of a local Title Company. I am very excited and feel a bit ready for the challenge. The last couple of months off have really helped me and I think I am moving towards who I need to be, or who I think I need to be.

Time to catch up with some of those who have taken the time to be my online friends. See you soon!

Sunday, February 05, 2006

Success

Taking time off and doing almost nothing has been good for my soul. I really have not accomplished much but I feel so much more free than I have in years. I still have the same worries and fears but it is different now.

I am set to get a written job offer from a title company. This is the position that I have wanted for a long time coming. It took me walking away from a previous law firm 2 years ago and doing a job I abhored to come to the realization that 1. I actually liked and 2. was good at being a Real Estate Title Agent. I am so very excited about this opportunity and can finally get away from a law firm atmosphere. Moving on is great and this job is going to present a challenge, a challenge for me to actually be happy and to be helpful to others.

Not all attorneys and others that I have worked with in the past are horrible. It is just such a different environment and just breds discontent and bad feelings. Your employers and co-workers can have a tendency to forget about the real world and those around them. I may be jaded when it comes to this attitude, but so be it.

My blogging has been seriously lacking, I apologize for that. I really need to catch up on everyone. But at the same time, being free from internet life has been a relief as well. The kids have loved having their mommy more often and its been fun to help out at school. I can't say the house is spotless but my brain is all the better for this time.

*smooches* to those that want'em!!!

Saturday, January 14, 2006

The Color of My Parachut

The color, my friends, is a happy one and I would say it is yellow. A bright sunny yellow, at least for the moment.

I am searching for a job, just not very hard. I have decided that January would be for Jen. To hell with what anyone else thinks about what I did or how I handled myself last month. It is today and tomorrow that matters.

Hubby is being infinitely patient and the kids are enjoying me being home. There is a relief I can't explain but only can say that I can smile and feel a little free. Although, I feel the man creeping in on my conciousness and soon need to decide on my path in life.

A huge *hug* to Scott for the title of this post and the prompting of me getting out of my shell. I have a lot to say and need to get cracking.